We still have that job decision to make. I honestly believe we've exhausted everything right here locally, but I'm not really contented with the choice that leaves. We've done the away-from-home stint and I didn't like it. I know, you just have to do what you have to do. Jobs are a rare thing these days, and ones that pay really well and provide benefits are even more difficult to find. Around here, anyway, just about everything of a full-time nature is strictly through these temp job services. And then you're sitting in a contract with them for up to 2 years, with a fee going to them from each paycheck. I can't even tell you how deeply that grates my irritation level. That just isn't right. That's extortion money as far as I'm concerned.
That leaves part-time jobs and while they aren't bad, they are pretty much spoken for around here being a college town.
So, we're back to out of state work again :o( I don't care if he's home on the weekends. He's still gone all week. There's not really a choice to be made. We aren't totally independent here, we require income to pay the few bills we have, so you do what you have to do and if that means an out of town job again for a while, then that's that. Decision made.
And you pinch every paycheck down to the penny and make it scream it's last breath in utter agony. The good news is, the children and I can live on far less 'needs' around here by ourselves. Not to say Dewey has some expensive needs or anything, but we simply don't cook or bake with him not home as we do when he's here. My 6 month pantry will extend a lot farther with just 'Dewey Meals' on the weekend. We don't starve or anything with him gone, but I'm not cookin' a 10# roast that's for sure :o)
What bothers me with his being gone is actually petty stuff. We have no true like-minded anything around here and our lifestyle isn't quite everyone else's. Not a bad thing, just not 'helpful' when he's gone. I can't do as much as he can. There, see, I'm hardly self-sustaining here. We have projects in the works...that beat-you-up garden for one, more fencing to run, and things like that. I just can't do those things like I once could. A couple fence posts now and I'm down for several days with my wrists just screaming at me. Last work stint out of town we didn't have any help for things. I don't ask for help, so obviously that's a big part of it, but when I did actually need something, folks who were seemingly eager to help just didn't have time. Everyone has their own things to do and tend to, adding another family's needs in there doesn't seem to work much. That and they seem to prefer dealing with the head of the household and as he wasn't here...well, you get the idea.
Surely I won't have those sorts of needs this time...Dewey won't be 6 hours away and unable to come home but once a month or so. He will be here on the weekends, so it's not like things will explode without him. Right? And though I really do believe community is an important thing, reliance really has to come in another form. We can't rely on neighbors to jump in where a need is found, though they should according to Christian principles without question.
Besides, I may not be able to do everything I once could, but I'm no dainty :o) I am stubborn and if I need something done that simply can't be accomplished by me, I have a brain and I can alter the original plan and make do in other ways. Make do with what you have :o)
Now to just finalize the whole plan...another key to success...gotta have a plan, a goal to focus on. Forget all the nay-sayers and stay focused to the goal. Maybe I'm feeling a bit less than enthusiastic because I haven't laid out a plan yet. I don't have all the variables in place, but I have enough on my own end to set up a plan and get it moving along.
And maybe the sun will break out today so this blasted moody spell will take a hike, heh?